1:26am

It is 1 26am on March 27th, 2011 right now. It has been about 3 months since I moved to Hawaii, the U.S.A. However, I feel like I have been here about 3 years and I do not know why. I do not know why I feel that way and whether it is good or bad for me either. When I was younger like early 20s,I thought times went slowly. It is kind of similar to those times I suppose. I guess then, it is not too bad for me. Actually I do live like 20s. I go to school and do homeworks. Yes I am a student. Maybe that is way.

Anyway, why am I still awake? Everyday I go to bed late and get up early. I sleep about for 5 hours per day and I do not take a nap. Sometimes I am sleepy at daytime but I do not close my eyes and it goes until very late night. I am just not sleepy at night. I really like being alone at very late night. It is so quiet and peaceful. Life seems simple in the moonlight. Now it is 1 41am.

Today is the first day of the rest my life

Therefore, I should be smarter than yesterday.

Stop being lazy and foolish.

Stick to what I have to do.

To achieve my dreams.

May 9

1. Things I WOULD immediately blow HUGE dollars on if I won the lottery

family trip to hawaii

buy bulidings

2. People I had on my bedroom wall when I was growing up

marilyn manson, seo taiji, homer simpson…

3. Movies You Have Seen So Many Times You Can Recite The Dialogue While Watching!

home alone, velvet goldmine, he’s just not that into you,

still don’t know

I still don’t know what to do with him.  It seems that I have same questions for years.

I must stop this bullshit.

After watching ‘He’s just not that into you’, I can’t stop thinking of what I am doing.  The role of Jennifer Aniston was totally me. My case is more serious than hers. He and I have been about 8 years on and off. Damn it’s even creepy…

I am soooo sad.

diet and work out

Whenever I see myself on the mirror before a shower, I thought I looked pretty nice. But these days I look chubby a bit. I do feel I am heavier than ever. But people say that I am slender and look just fine. Probably they did not lie to me. But I feel it is time to watch out my weight.

I decided to be on a healthy diet and do some work out. First I should eat less instand food for example afternoon office snacks or Mcdornald’s ice cream or yummy fried chicken. Damn, I am already drooling over talking about those.  Second, I walk back home after my work. It takes about 45 mins across a bridge, a park and downtown. It has actually pretty nice view this city even though I am tired of the city.

I guess I do not need to lose some weight. I just want to have some muscle.  It won’t be so hard, right?